Need to write

Brian Bex once told me i should keep a journal.  You can look him up, he is kind of an important guy, so his advice should not lightly be cast aside.  A journal makes sense but this is not what i will be writing about here.  If you want tot understand why i, or you, should keep a journal talk to Brian he is accessible; or you can reed any of the books in the Laundry series by Charles Stross.  Bex and Stross can more eloquently or pragmatically explain the value of a journal.  Suffice it to say they are right and i am wrong for not keeping one.

An attorney i know here in town has kept a journal of all of his trials.  This is a great idea and i wish that we'd had the conversation concerning it fifteen years ago.  I will be sure to direct new attorneys to speak with him about his journal.  But again i am digressing.

This is not about journals, this is about not writing.  I seem to be spending more effort in this blog writing about not writing than just writing. Being busy is just one of many excuses i could raise, but what it really boils down to is a lack of discipline.  I know i should write more.  When i look back at the older entries here it amuses me to no end.  I am cheating my self, and you dear reader, when i do not write.

I also need to exercise.  I have lame excuses for not doing that as well.  But the excuses are no longer going to be enough.  For the last several weeks i have felt the need, almost like a craving, to impose more discipline in my life.  For the last three years i have imposed insufficient discipline upon myself. The increase in my waist size and decrease in the volume of my writings confirm that i have not be rigorous enough in my self control.

I am putting this in writing as a means of holding myself more accountable.   I will write more.  I will use my damn treadmill for its intended purpose rather than its auxiliary clothes hanging function.  I will do these hings because it will make me a better person.  Last night i explained to a number of children and a few you adults Plato's theory that only a just man can be happy.  I have been pretty happy of late, but i cannot claim to have been truly just.  Given that i accept Plato's theory, i have not been truly happy.  There is a greater happiness that i am denying myself right now and it is time for that to stop.

I will make a concerted effort to better chronicle my thoughts and observations.  This blog is akin to a journal and is likely as close as i will come to keeping one.  Although this blog is primarily an exercise in solipsistic self-indulgence, it still occasionally is read by others and commented upon.  Some of those comments cause growth in the way i think, act, or interact.  Increasing the output of this blog will increase to opportunity for growth and put me further down a useful path.  At least that is one hoped for outcome.  In any event exercising another dimension of disciple will prove to be its own reward.

Special thanks go to Kris, Adam, Thom S., Heather H., and as always my beautiful wife Erin.

Later

Bob